well. i havent been keeping track of time lately. and i dont even know what day it is alreadi. is it thurs alreadi?? how fast is that? or maybe it is just me.

ANYWAY, major events have been happening. or happened. firstly, i went out with evg frens for hari raya on tues (i think). it was a last minute thingie, but thanx to NJ's insistence (and persistance) that i should come along, i did. and these are all the people that i havent seen for a very long time. it took me some time to enjoy myself (cuz these peps are nt my usual clique, but they're cool). and we spend like hours on the first few houses. anyway, the thing is, we went visiting until like the wee hours in the morning. and i am so dead. cuz i din call my parents (until the VERY last minute) and they couldnt call me (i'll explain later). sooo, lemme tell u, walking in the middle of the road, in the middle of the night was a new experience for me. well, not really. but the thing is, the others were walking like it was 12pm when in fact it was 12am in the morning. but i enjoyed myself thou. but if my parents were to be against me going out raya-ing after this i would understand. well, NO, i wont. i should be able to go out again!
haha. anyway, this time, i'm just lucky they didnt lock me out of the house. and THANKFULLY, i got none of that lecture tt i was half-expecting.

SO.*grinz* i am so bloody proud of my sis. cuz she's one of the top student in s'pore. erm, sec top mly student. for PSLE. woooweeee!!! i am jus soo happy for her. she's the genius of the family. and HAHAHA. it was kinda weird seeing my lil' sis on the tv last night. weird but in a cool way. i mean, that's my sis man!! *beams* ok. i shall stop here. i'm acting like i am the one who scores 277 for my PSLE. but still. im PROUD of her.

so, my hp is temp out of order at the moment. it will take me a while to get it back on track. (erm...)
i am so sorry u guys. but u'll juz hv to wait a few more erm, days? wks? but hey, there's always the house phone.

oh and i will upload my raya pics soon. so u'll get a chance to take a look at ME. haha. NAH! but soon as i upload all my raya pics, i'll tell. till then.

~ PEACE ~

P.S - VOTE FOR TAUFIK!!! LOL. no, really. VOTE. FOR. TAUFIK.

i think its about time i should update my blog. ok, so its been one week since hari raya. and i havent really gone out much for early this week because my sisters are still schooling so there isnt really any time for us to go visiting. and to be totally honest, i dont really feel like its hari raya. i mean, it was only when my mom turn on the radio and i heard 'lagu raya' that i remembered that hari raya is still on. cuz in my household, everything is as per normal.

of course there's the usual kuih raya sitting on top of the coffee table. and the house looks a bit more 'nicer' than usual. (haha) but i think that's about it really. no mood for me. and if i watch tv, my hand would slowly creep up to the table and eat the 'kuihs'. Fine, i know its for guests, but there are plenty more in the kitchen that i can hardly care. plus i still feel like i'm fasting. it's going to be quite a while before i can break the habit and start to eat my lunch again. havent had lunch at all this wk even though fasting month's over. i guess its because i'm quite used to not eating for the past one month.

anyway, its the weekend, and i think we are going to go out visiting. if im not mistaken. it should be tomorrow, but i guess i'll have to check w my parents again. anyway, the other day, me and haz went out-to return library books. haha. our 'raya' outing would be the coming saturday, i think. the other reason we went out was to discuss the dates and day that our other friends would be free. and we ate at swenson there. haha. just for the fun of it. and finally i feel so much better now that we have decided which day we are going to go out. cuz i think the rest would just shrug their shoulder off this responsibility-making decisions. haz has decided that next year, she's going to be the one who's gonna shake off that responsibility and let them do it. and she told me to do the same. ok. its fine with me. the only thing is, if i dont do it, i dont think the others will. nvm. this is a story for later i guess.

anyway, been busy off doing some other things lately. and to be honest i am quite addicted to it. but thats all im gonna reveal. anyway, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims out there. Hope your Raya was better than mine anyway.

~ Breaking tHe habit. Tonight. ~

Doesnt that sound corny? the title i mean...death (a new beginning)..sounds like some third rate cheap horror film, doesnt it? ok. nvm.

anyway, have you ever think about wad happens after we die? i knw this is a pretty goth, deep and dark topic, and my friends wld prob give me a tight slap for raising this subject. but really. have u ever? think bout wad happens to the ppl we left behind after we die, not where we go.

see, once you are gone, some ppl will mourn for your loss but i think this will happens only for a short period of time. cuz they do need to move on like most ppl would say.so hv u ever think about wad happens to their (your loved ones) lives ones you are out of the picture? its a bit odd isnt it? you prob wouldnt want to be forgotten, but hey, face it, you no longer exist.

sometimes i think back bout the time wen some things happen, only to remember that my aunt is no longer in the picture. like for example, wad happens during our last visit to her house. only it took me quite a while to rmber that she's no longer with us. weird isnt it? to think that someone u know your whole life is no longer there. and i can still rmbr that fateful day like it was just yesterday. i remember the last thing i said to her. *sighs*

anyway, wad will happen to those ppl who loves me when i'm gone? i wonder.

^ Welcome To My Life ^

so. finally. my lappie is fixed. so this means that you get to see me online more often. went with haz just now to get my lappie fixed. its been a really long time since i went out with her, and i think this is the first time in weeks. so, anyway, after getting my lappie fixed, we went back to causeway. to do nothing but window shopping. erm, well, we decided to survey the shops since i still havent bought my shoe (kasut raya) yet. so walking around and trying to find decent shoes with decent prices...but we end up buying a bag, and something else...haha. it was kinda fun since i havent been out for so long. and now i only need some decent shoes. saw some which is not so bad...maybe i'll go and see again soon. then just maybe i'll go and buy it and then everything will be complete...i think.

hmm..cant really believe that nxt sunday is already hari raya. its quite fast when i think about it. it doesnt really feel like one month fasting for me. aniways. yeah, looking forward to going out with all my friends...its been a long time since i last saw, what else go out with them. but hope it will happen soon cuz i sort of miss them. haha. plus, sch holiday will be over nxt mth. =( oh well. just better enjoy the time that i have now...

^ Better to enjoy what U hav now than To think bout What u Don't ^