(short entry)
imagine being the only girl in a class full of boys..oh how FUN! yeah rite. i was the extra person there (thanks to Jun Jie for pointing that out). Thank YOU girls for abandoning me. I love u all! When i said i was feeling anti-social and didnt feel like interacting with anyone, (refer to previous post) i didnt mean it to be this way. Geez.
mwahaha..nah, i was juz joking. it wasnt so bad lah...cuz i can get along with them. actualli, i wasnt tt aware i'm in a class full of guys (including the lecturer) until i went home. isnt that weird? maybe cuz i was too busy paying attention in class, or too busy smsing.
i was the victim there. how sad... aniway, had MMA remedial, and then meet up with my sister and we had lunch outside. which was spoiled by some people.

plus, the house's empty these days...which is a good thing, cuz i can get some peace (like, FINALLY!), but a bad thing too, cuz then, i wont feel like studying but juz chilling out. sigh. what am i going to do with myself?
ok, like i said. short entry. ends here. sayonara!

sigh. sorry guys. if you dont hear from me for quite some time, here are the possible reasons why:

1. My Internet is now giving me loads of problems.
2. My head is in a lot of chaos right now.
3. I am not feeling well, physically, emotionally, mentally.
4. I have to study for my Common Tests (taking place next week).
5. I have no mood to interact with anyone. Feeling quite anti-social.




So, sorry guys if i havent been acting normal. You've Been Warned.

Tag replies:

Shaz: LOL. we lurve u too hun! =p
Ain: Cute eh? hehe...
Een: Da update da hah.. kau pulak biler??
Cheryl: Oi! U lazy bump..no school also wake up late..*shakes head* Miss U?!!!

(For the sake of my friends who dont understand the difference btw Hari Raya Haji -aka Hari Raya Aidil Adha- and Hari Raya AidilFitri)

Muslims all over the world observe Eid-ul Adha (in Arabic) or Hari Raya Aidil Adha (in Malay) on the 10th day of Zulhijah, the last month of the Muslim calendar. This festival is celebrated in conjunction with the pilgrimages performed by Muslims, called the Haj and to commemorate Prophet Abraham's spirit of Qurban or sacrifice. Thus, in Singapore, Hari Raya Aidil Adha is also known as Hari Raya Haji or Hari Raya Qurban.
The Haj is a pilgrimage to the holy places in and around the holy city of Mecca (the birthplace of Islam) in Saudi Arabia where pilgrims will perform certain religious rituals and prayers. It is one of the central religious duties of Muslims and is enshrined in the Quran. According to the fifth tenet of Islam, Muslims who are financially and physically able are required to perform a pilgrimage to the holy city of Mecca at least once in their lifetime. The pilgrimage is also inspired by the earlier example of obedience to God set by the Prophet of Abraham. Pilgrims wear special clothes: simple garments which strip away distinctions of class and culture, so that all stand equal before God.
After the completion of the Haj, the pilgrims would perform the 'qurban' or sacrifice. This act is in remembrance of Prophet Abraham's willingness to sacrifice his elder son, Ishmael, when God commanded him to do it as a test of his commitment to his faith. At the last moment, God miraculously replaced a ram in place of Ishmael.
In Singapore, the day is spent offering thanksgiving prayers and prayers for forgiveness at the mosques early in the morning. After prayers, Muslims conduct the 'qurban' - slaughtering of animals such as lambs and goats. Though not a compulsory religious duty, it is considered an obligation for those who can afford. The meat is distributed to neighbours, friends and most importantly to the poor and needy while keeping a portion (usually 1/3) for their family. It is customary for Muslims to visit their parents and relatives where a wide selection of traditional Malay food is served.
Hari Raya Aidiladha is different from Hari Raya Puasa, also known as Aidil Fitri. Hari Raya Puasa, which falls on the 1st of Syawal, the tenth month of the Islamic calendar, marks the end of Ramadan, the month of fasting. It is a day of victory for Muslims, having successfully completed the fast.

(source: The Net)

Issues Issues. Should be resolved. Whoops. Headache again. My headaches are making themselves comfortable in my head a lot these days. And the common tests havent' even started yet. OPs. Why'd i have to remind myself?!

Anyway, the NP open house starts tomorrow. Actually, i've forgotten that it starts on Wed, until my sister spoke of it. *shakes head* i'm ashamed of myself. All are welcome ya? Maybe i should act as if i'm not an NP student and walk around receiving goody bags like its' nobody's business?
Haha.

anyway, i was thinking of changing my blogskin. I like this one. It's nice (not to forget original..hehekz), but i think it'll only get a 3 for ease of use. See? I'm talking nonsense right now. but really. i should make a skin that's easy to navigate. (OMG. IT has invade itself in my BODY! I'm really speaking like an IT web designer or something.) Good gracious!

OK. I gtg and SCREAM my lungs out. Feeling FRUSTRATED and PISSED at my PARENTS right NOW who had JUST entered MY ROOM and SPEAK SHIT TO ME.

WHATEVER.

this is actually a late entry. nah. not really. aniway, i would've updated sooner if not for the BIS assignment. but nw tt its over, lets not talk about it.

soo. went to SENTOSA with haz on saturday. yea, ok i know it is probably at the wrong timing wad w common tests juz ard e corner. bt dis is haz's last min idea n how can i resist? i need to destress myself aniwayz.

oh man. i got a headache now. gtg and rest myself first. if u by any chance happen to read this (only god knows why...its like wad? 12am in the morning alreadi), i'll be continuing the story later in sch...having a really bad heachache rite now. ok. later.

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ok. so yes. i went to sentosa. yes it was fun. yes i enjoyed myself. But it was wrong.

until my friend actually told me, i didnt realise that i was not who i used to be.
i was brought back to reality. who am i really? why did i do what i did?
i remembered once. mom warned me. before i entered poly. before the semester starts. do not get influenced by people that you meet. but i didnt heed her advice. because i thought i was strong enough. because i thought i'm not that easily influenced. little did i know that it was happening rite under my nose. and i didnt even notice it. until it was too late.
my friend said some harsh words. harsh but true. and i am grateful for those words. they made me see again what i had turned a blind eye to. made me open my eyes clear and wide.
MADE ME REALISE THAT I'M NOT WHO I'M SUPPOSED TO BE.
and thus, i should mend the errors of my way. i just hope its not too late.

now i just feel disgusted at myself. cheap. dirty. corrupted. fake. my feelings are all jumbled up. frustration, hurt, sorrowful, miserable. i'm just feeling raw and vulnerable right now.

thanks again my friend, for saying the words that you did. i appreciate it.

ok. i'm doing this right after i have spend 3 frigging hours on my BIS assignment. and i'm having a really bad headache rite now. but the only reason why i'm creating this entry is cuz shirlyn wanted me to update and so i'm gonna do it.

there's honestly nothing to update about. cuz today, nothing really happened in school. and my brain is too messed up to be having opinions/thoughts. but the highlight of the day is when me, eileen and angeline went to the pasar malam at Clementi.

yes. its too damn early for us to go to the 'pasar malam' in the afternoon. ironic if you ask me. but that's the only time that we can all go there. i mean, we're not living in that area. far from it. and the only reason why we decided to go there in the first place is because angeline wanted to eat the Ramli burger. oh that and to show me the stall owner whom she claimed was a handsome mly guy aged 18/19. =p

plus all of us havent had our breakfast and it was already 1pm so we were obviously famished.

actually when we arrive there, it was quite packed as well. lots of ppl were like us, just go there to buy food. hehekz.
ok, angeline brought us to the stall. but it was closed. haha. so no handsome mly guy. too bad. would've been good eye candy. *bleah* saleha what the hell are you saying?!

sooo. anyway, we went to another stall that sells Ramli burger. YumYum! me and angeline had the beef burger while eileen had chicken. we still bought 'goreng pisang' and some fishballs. ish. reliving that time is making me hungry again.

finally, when we figured out that we had bought enough food to stuff our stomachs, we went in search for a place to sit and eat. went to this coffeeshop and sat there. honestly we were acting as if we're in a restaurant. instead of going to the stall and order our drinks, angeline called for the guy. cuz if nt, we wld've been waiting there forever. haha. lazy bums. and then we ate our food, and before the burger was even half finished, everyone was complaining that they're full. me included. haha. angeline ate the burger until the sauce drips and kena her wallet (don ask me how it happened). eileen ate with funny faces - cuz of the burger. me? i found an easier way to eat the burger...eat it the other way round(as in turn the burger upside down). and it was really hard to eat with me laughing away. then we had our drinks and talked. and suddenly reach the topic bout swimming. (speaking of which, i wanna learn how to float!!) sigh. just have to wait till the time comes then.

and then we head back home. eileen took a straight bus, me and angeline headed towards the MRT station. and that was that. 'cept for the fact that angeline was blur on which train she should take...*shakes head*

so that's it. my story of what i had for breakfast/lunch/dinner. cuz i didnt eat again when i came home. even though my mom cooked lontong!!! ok, i admit i ate a tiny share of it. its too irresistable! yumyum!

finally. my room is all cleaned up. lemme tell you the mess that i've made for the past few days was scary. since i end class early today (only had sch for one and a half hour) went home straight. of course initially i wanted to catch up on my "beauty sleep" but i figure the mess was just too bad already and might as well clean it up now tt i hv the time. so i did. now everythings much better.

anyway, on my way home just now, this lady came up to me and ask me this survey qn tt i tot was only meant for adults (like 21 and above). everytime she ask me a qn i jus gave her my "daze n puzzled" look, until she asks me am i still studying or working.
ok. fine. i get it. i look old w/o my specs. so i've been told a thousand times. i look 20-ish.
and i've been told as well that if i wear my specs i look "younger". 14-ish.
ok. i don look my age. fine, i get it already. sheesh. haha.

and my legs. i can hardly walk. let alone go up and down the stairs. it hurts a lot cuz its been too long since i exercised and when i did, my leg muscles strain themselves. yup. now i hv strained leg muscles.

oh and i hv another project due tml. another game. ooh this is going to be SO FUN! (take note of the sarcasm. haha)
but i won squeeze out all my brain juice for this one. cuz i don think its worth it. lets juz go with the flow....

so i just woke up. and you'll probably expect me to talk abt yesterday. but i wont.

so the death toll has topped 125,000. and its expected to reach around 150,000.
the number of people who died. 150,000 is a lot. a whole lot.
some things i dont understand. why do the poor become poorer? why do the good always have to suffer? why is it that the countries that are affected by the tsunami are the "worst-off" countries?
plus i found out some other things as well. like its not bad enough that people have died in this natural disaster, but some people still are just too evil. i read that some dead bodies are found with their fingers/ears gone (cut off) - meaning that some people steal their rings and earrings. oh my god. there's still people like this around? i was horrifically speechless. and my heart just gets heavier and heavier everytime i read the papers.

and the sky seems to be crying for the victims of the tsunami disaster. so should everyone else for that matter.

i cant believe that i was here happily typing away at my computer when the natural disaster actually strike last Sunday.

i cant believe that we are here happily celebrating the new year when other people are sadly mourning.

i cant believe that we just throw away our lives like that when some people are struggling to live.
people are fighting for their lives over there.
we are just questioning ours.

oh and happy new year.