Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces we'll choose to ignore

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroy

I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroy

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation is leaving me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroy

Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I cant stand you

"I wish I was 10 years younger.."
As weird as it is, this thought has crossed my mind more than twice today. And just how old am I now anyway? Its the holidays, and there's still plenty of kids, running around, having fun using whatever's left of their holidays wisely. Everywhere you go, there'd surely be plenty of kids doing their own stuff. Which is why, it makes me wish I was a kid still. Where I wont have to worry about such things like deadlines or projects and all those stuff that we, young adults, think about.

Their worries are probably just last minute homework or something like that. And that's about it. And they get to play at those 'water fountain areas' (if you know what i'm talking about) without having anybody giving much thought about it. I have to watch these kids with envy. Well, yes, its qutie obvious isn't it? I'll admit i'm still a kid at heart.

So anyway, went to the SSC today. Only when I'm there did I remember that the last time I was there was back in Secondary 2. Yeap, it was only after I've reached the place that the memories come flowing in. Information on how I'm sure it was back Secondary 2 is kept discreet.

Yeah, anyway, walked around the exhibition and.. went around the place again, I guess. There were really lots of kids around. I'm not really surprised now. Yeah, so that was about it.

I have yet to watch The Chronicles of Narnia now that its out. Oh and I'm looking for a McFlurry partner for tomorrow. Haha, its called craving, I think.

Besides the fact that I've been having weird thoughts in my head, I've also got a song stuck there. Plus 44's - No It Isn't.
For an alternative link, click here for a sample of the song. Been humming this since yesterday.

Ooh yeah and another thing. Just watched My tutor friend (KMovie) and Waterboys (JMovie) recently. Extremely hilarious, we were laughing in the room like nobody's business. And it wasnt those chuckles type of laughter either. It was one of those "guffawing" type, if you know what it means. Yeah, that (bad) hilarious.

Well its up till here then. Holidays will be over soon. Of course, I'm not really looking forward to it, but oh well. Oh I almost forgot. Everyone's gotta click this link: here. Seriously.

okay i'm officially hooked. A new addiction.

That's JDrama.

I think I like the ones in the Sports/High School genre most. Just finished watching H2, its quite addictive. Got me really hooked since the beginning. And the soundtrack is totally cool as well. It's about baseball mostly, but there's the usual high school thing in there as well. Really nice. Though I actually know nuts about baseball, I think I understand a little bit more after watching this show.

And I've watched Pride before, which is about Ice Hockey. Makes me want to take up these sports, the way they show it; it's really interesting!

Hah, though I've still got to finish my assignments, bleah. Dont really feel like doing it, but dont really have a choice either.

But nvm. I'm hooked. Though I cant really do anything much about it, since my connection's so slow. Plus, their file size are huge, though mostly the dramas are only about 11 eps tops. Oh well. I'll have to finish my TOR, before moving on to VID. Bluek.

My mom loves to say "I hate surprises". Well, she doesnt say it all the time, but enough to make me remember that point. I didnt really know exactly why, some people actually love surprises.

But, until, I get to experience it first-hand, I'm beginning to understand why my mom said that. Being surprised, for me, is like I dont know what's been going on, and suddenly BAM! something different gets put in your face.

Not all surprises are bad, but, I'd much rather not have it, if that's possible.

Anyway, yes, finally. Break week! For the next two weeks to come. I am so thrilled. It's just the weekend, but I feel like I'm having my holiday already. Dad and Mom brought home Satay last night, after I got back from town with Haz. Yum.

Waha. Maybe I'm enjoying too much, but I'm just taking a short break. Projects still exists, mind you.

Anyway, from stories I heard today, I kinda feel that Singaporeans are getting too westernized. This is the reason why I sometimes envy people who's leading a simple lifestyle in the rural areas. At least they're contented with what they have, not asking for more. They do not prioritise money only. They appreciate their life. Us Singaporeans, disappointingly, are total opposites.

Oh, but let's leave that talk for some other time. Who knows, I can get sued for this. (Dripping with SO MUCH sarcasm here.)

I'll just place some good photos taken over the past 2 days.







More in Friendster, I think. Oh and believe it or not, (though its not really visible) that last picture is actually King Kong's hand. It's severed! *gasp*

Oh and here's wishing a..

okay okay, lookie wad i found.
i think this describes me well. see here. What am i? A loser! haha. but seriously, everything that's written there are true. i HATE making decisions. and etc.

Yah, that's all this post is about.

i think if i were to have my own website, i'd include a category for movie reviews. because, before the week has even ended, i have already watched 4 movies. and two of them just today.
and its movies from totally different genres.

Saw II
Aeon Flux
Prime
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

i'm wondering if i shld go catch chicken little on theaters, since its like the number one movie on the box office this week. But everyone's watched it (though not reali in cinemas..) Oh nvm, we'll just see what happens.

so today was.. totally a break from all the projects, assignments, deadlines.
Me and Eileen treat ourselves to alot of stuff today.

After school, head over to SIM and had lunch with the guys. Western Food today.
Then went to town to watch Prime. After that, ate cheesecake. Queued up for Starbuck's free drinks. Bought a popcorn. And went to watch Harry Potter.

So it was already late when the movie ends. But it was enjoyable, because.. we needed a break.

anyway, movies to look out for this december

• wallace and gromit
• Chronicles of Narnia

well thats' what i'm planning to watch (hopefully). maybe i shld add king kong and pride & prejudice, the family stone, and memoirs of a geisha to that. But it depends.

but these are the movies i'm reali looking out for by 2006

X-Man 3

Ice Age 2

Pirates of the Carribean 2

so now, its back to reality. The cruel reality, if i must add..

Seriously, what am doing here at this time? i'm sidetracking from my assignments i tell ya. Apparently the stress of too much stuff to hand in tomorrow has gotten to me, and i have practically lash out at everyone who spoke to me on MSN. My humble apologies. I always get this way when its this time of the semester. Maybe i should have gain more control over my emotions/stress level. Hmm..

Anyway, i should really not stay long here. Just thought i might wanna share something i found over the internet (obviously sidetrack-ing again), what with December approaching and all.

Take a look, here, you might find it interesting.

I like Dec 7,13,16, 28, 28, 28!!
(basically any days that has to do with candy)

and take note of the dates with extra comments (the one in brackets) Its really hilarious.
New Year's Eve is apparently Unlucky day. As well as Make Up Your Mind Day, which i seem to be lousy at.

its a brand new month and surprisingly i'm here updating my blog again. how rare is that eh?
anyway, i spent only about half an hour on my sleep last night. Slept at 6.30 and woke up half an hour later. So i spend the whole night to complete that website.
And like i said i still got many more of the assignment to go, but i'm taking a short break from all that. Plus its already the weekend for me so i think i'm only going to spend it wisely by resting and doing nothing else.

So anyway something juz popped up in my mind a couple of days ago. Its what someone said to me years ago, back when i was in Secondary School. That person said i kind of look like a guy. Mind you, my hair wasnt even short then.
And so a few days ago, i asked Murni her opinion about it. And after having my face being scrutinised for 2 to 3 minutes, she said.. "Yeah, kind of. If you.." + some conditions which i cant really remember.
Then today, when i went to school, she said the way i was dressed was really "slack". Plus the fact that i only brought a file to school. I would have called it casual, just jeans, slippers, and an oversized t-shirt. But i'm comfortable like that, so what?

I remember something mom said quite some time ago. Even if being a lady is not you, try to act like one when you're in public. Trouble is, acting like a lady is just not me. Somehow deep down i tink i'm kind of a tomboy. Everyone who knows me real well knows that i am not the soft, sweet, caring, miss-goody-two-shoes type of girl. I'm much much more .. something. I cant say better or worse, but all i can say is, I'm not really.. sweet or anything. Just because i wear a tudung doesnt mean i dont have a personality. Good or bad though, its not really up to me to decide. I dont even know why i'm revealing this personal fact about myself in public.

So now i'm thinking of some stuff that i have for this upcoming month, and all i can think of is meeting deadline(S). I think that should be self-explanatory. oh and i keep having this craving for some fast food (havent been touchin em for weeks) and some tarts or cream puffs or something light. Something like desert or appetizer like ice cream. YUM! Someone take me to Swensen's already!