WARNING: This post is long and probably even like an essay. Read it at your own risk.

Today's topic is about: myself. (Surprise, surprise)
I'll just first list down my bad points, so that people would (hopefully) stay away from me. The main thing here is that I am definitely not promoting myself.

Negative things about Saleha is:

Anti-social. (Really, I tend to be choosy about who I hang around with)
Arrogant. (When I feel like it)
Stubborn. (All the time, when I have my own opinion about things)
Selfish. (I'm selfish with everything I own - change, I need to change!!)
Insensitive. (To people's feelings)
Sarcastic. (You know me right?)
Lazy. (What can I say)
Egoistic. (Everyone has egos. Mine just increase whenever I disagree with something)
Rude. (When I'm mad, I tend to be rude)
Greedy. (Just about everything)
Unhelpful. (I'll just look and stare, and do not take the initiative to help)
Irresponsible. (I don't really do my job and will start blaming others)
Irrational. (No comments)
Unreasonable. (Like I've mentioned, it's the ego)
Impatient. (When I'm pushed over the edge, I get impatient with just about everything)

And of course the many more. But really, that's me. People who know me better should know that. The ones that are bold (which coincidentally spells out SAL) is me all the time. All the other negative things are me usually when people push their luck, or have done something to make me really mad. That is the truth about me. I dont even know why I'm actually publishing this for the public, but I guess I'll just have to mend my errors. I know I have my faults, and its easier said than done, changing one self. I guess I'll just have to put in more effort.

So the other day, I was wondering about my future. It's scary, isn't it, thinking about the future.

I wonder what kind of adult I'd grow up to be (after reading all those negative attitude of mine).
I wonder what kind of job I'd get after graduation.
I wonder whom are the people that will be in touch with me, after school, for the rest of my life.

Anyway, not long ago, the whole sister troop sit down together and watched tv. Teman Anugerahku's the show (Suria channel, Wednesday, 9.30pm) and I can't say things like "It rocks!". Because, truth be told, it probably didn't. The reason I'm wasting my time is just to watch the anugerah guys. I wasn't really interested, honestly, I didn't even catch Anugerah at all! Was it last year? Yeah, so whatever it is, we were there watching and mostly criticising the whole thing. Because this is after all a Malay drama. Everything tends to be overboard.

There's a guy who wants to know his real mother (just because his girlfriend pester him to do so) and his foster mom gets upset (with exaggerated tears, you know, the works) and it was supposed to be a sad scene. Right? I mean, come on, there's tears. But. The sisters, being the sisters, make light of it. We laughed (while I have the suspicion that someone in the other room actually cried - and that someone is a guy btw, the only guy under this roof) because it just wasn't there. The feeling of the supposedly sad emotion. We were all making fun of it, and basically rolling our eyes etc.

Then there's the girl who's pregnant, but wants this certain guy to be the 'father'. When it was her ex's child she's pregnant with. Of course this new guy doesn't have any idea. So the girl got him drunk (drunk?! helloooo?!!! Just what kind of person are you suppose to be again?!) and then bring him up to her room. But just before anything bad could happen, his friend came to get him, and save him from the nightmare (which he himself doesn't know about). Woke up the next morning at his friend's place and instead of being thankful, he actually accuses his friend of making the whole thing up and etc etc. I mean come on! And all this friendship thing ("Oh well, at least we're still friends." "Yeah, we still got our friendship") is surreal. Guys don't actually go around saying that to one another. Right?

Parents who actually do not let the son hang out with his friends just because they're malay. And no music?! At least I can understand the fact that there are some parents who're strict about their son's studies. But no music? That is just so unbelieavable. Oh and if your parents ask how was your exam, how'd you answer? I'd just say, "It was alright, I guess."
And because the scripting was..
Well let's just say he actually let out that he didn't exactly get to finish his econs paper. And his mom starts going ballistic. Ballistic I tell you! Oh my. Oh yeah, the guy mentioned "Come on, I'm not a girl," and I just had to laugh. I find it amusing. Because this is just too funny (in a ridiculous way).

Then there's the other dad who starts shouting at his son because he didnt' get a job. And one of my sis happened to mention "This scene looks similar, doesn't it?" Well, figure that out for yourself.
Oh yeah, before I end this rambling, there was this one part where one of the guys' mom says to bring home his gf. Since she'd like to meet this "special friend" of his. And we had our discussion, saying "Wow, look at that, if it was the guy's parents, they'd say bring the girl home, if she's free, so I'd have a chance to meet her.. And if it was a girl's parents.. it's something else altogether. More on the lines of.. bring the guy home, so that I'd get a chance to bash up that person who thinks he's good enough for my daughter."
Which I had to agree to, of course.

Please, do correct me if I'm wrong. I am opiniated as someone've mentioned. This is why I avoid watching malay dramas. Instead of enjoying the whole thing, there'd just be critism. Anyone who knows me, really really knows me, knows that I do not switch the channel to Suria. On the account that I actually watch the tv. But really. There are much better shows out there.

Despite all this critism (or trash talk), I'd still watch the whole show. Because there's Azmir, whom I've only noticed when I started watching this show. (Before this it was Fauzi, but.. he looks weird now). And then ShiHo started saying how cute Khairil was. I only like his character in the show. The most rational guy in the whole drama. But Azmir is cute, although I'm beginning to dislike the character he's playing. And how come Don always plays all these ridiculous roles anyway? The slutty type who works at those indecent places? Bah.

And I found the perfect review for the show. This tells all, I couldn't have written it better myself.


http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/guide/story/0,4136,102838,00.html

I'll be back for more posts I guess. But no more critism. Hopefully.
Anyway, IHP again tomorrow. Ah, hope this'll be a good week for me.